NADINE KATKHOUDA
Rarely have I experienced such a profound sensation while
listening to music
as I have with Maria Alice’s “Moment”. The format of
the recital was
unconventional and refreshing and I wish more musicians would really
perform as she has. Maria Alice took the audience and I along an amazing
journey that I will not soon forget. Lights were dimmed, candles were
lighted and then, a story, a very spiritual one, was told. I think this kind
of set up was essential to create the right kind of ambiance,
conducive to inspiration on the part of both pianist and the public. Maria Alice
understands that music should be a shared experience, one in which both parties
are active participants.
I have been to many recitals, private performances and concerts but rarely
have I been so in tuned to the piece performed, so emotionally connected to
the notes played. In fact, what I heard were not separate notes, or even
movements, what I heard was the musical transcription of Maria’s feelings
that she shared with us. What I felt when I heard this was very
particular. At the beginning, I didn’t know the direction of my state
of
mind. The opening was enticing, mysterious and I felt as if I was gently
being pushed to somewhere unknown. I felt as though I was really taken out
of the context of UCLA, of Los Angeles, and transported to a ‘higher’
place, a more spiritual one. It is hard for me to explain without sounding
cliché, but this is the truth. It was quite an out-of-body experience. As
Maria played on, I started to forge emotional ties with the piece, certain
passages reminded me of how I felt at a certain times: happy, sad,
confused, ecstatic, in and out of love... But more so, I felt as though
all these emotions, when played out on the piano, were connected together
to represent what life really is, buzzing with all this energy around and
within us. Then I also started to bring in the story with the piece and
it
reminded me of the possibilities within each of us, of all the aspirations
that I have about myself and what I hope to become and accomplish. As I
listened on, I felt that this, at least for me, was the meaning of the
piece. Maria’s expression, her movements on the piano, reflected
the
universal struggle, my own as well, that we have within ourselves everyday
while we are living, battling and enjoying life. It is hard to remain true
to ourselves, to find our essence and develop our fullest potential. This
struggle was for me the highest sensation I felt somewhere in the middle of the
piece.
This realization combined with memories from my personal experience
culminated together in a very surreal experience. These feelings were not
resolved at the end, the hardship did not vanish into thin air. But,
everything was a bit calmer, as if I was more at peace, more comfortable
with myself and with these feelings before me, with this struggle that is
life. When the lights were turned back on and reality was before me, I
was
shaken up and yet, I felt that it was all worth it because I knew it was to
achieve a higher goal, even if that goal is still hidden. This is what I
felt as I listened to Maria’s piece, an experience that surely lasted more
than a “Moment”.